I am emotionally unavailable.

This is why I have such a hard time making friends. & connecting to people, period. I'm distant & weird & become so worried that I'm going to make the other person uncomfortable that I get really anxious & make it all worse.

Something I'm working on.

Tumblr Blog.

So, I think I've decided to move to Tumblr... or we'll at least test it out.

http://sharksloveasparagus.tumblr.com/

The Shield is amazing.

The FX show, that is. Over the last couple months Nick & I have been watching the series from start to finish (well, almost finished, still have Season 7 to go). I remember when it was on originally but never watched it & never had any interest in it. Then I met Nick who had the whole series & thought it was fantastic. I didn't believe him. Even after seeing a couple random episodes while he watched thru Season 6 & 7 last year, I didn't get it. Then he decided to start from the beginning... then I saw a little more... now I'm hooked. It's so good. I was surprised. I knew it was about a dirty cop & all, but I didn't expect it to be so compelling..

Why am I writing a post about The Shield? I was thinking about writing a post about the kinds of things I am interested in, b/c from my last post about shows I've recently gone to, I realized writing about shows I've recently gone to is not really that interesting to me. Then I decided a post about what kinds of things interest me w/out really going into anything that really interests me, was also stupid. So, I'm writing about The Shield b/c currently, that is what has been holding my attention for some time now. I'm sure I've been spending way too much time watching it, but I've been pretty depressed & laying in bed watching an intense, engaging TV show makes me feel better. Even though it might not be the healthiest of practices.. I'm pretty sure I'll feel a little refreshed once it's all over & out of my system. Besides, it's not like I watch TV on a regular basis. Don't even have basic cable. Sometimes use Hulu, but only for Family Guy & Castle & occasionally, Buffy The Vampire Slayer.

Anyway, I was telling my mom about it, which was kind of ridiculous b/c I had to follow, "it's so good. really well done." with "but I'm pretty sure you wouldn't like it. it's really intense & graphic sometimes." What a buzz kill. She thinks CSI is too gory. Hrumph.

So. This is my recommendation. Watch The Shield but start from the beginning! I just signed up on NeighboorGoods.com. I'll see if Nick will let me loan out his DVDs. Along with a bunch of other crap we've accumulated. w00t.

Recent shows.

The Deadly Syndrome @ El Rey

They're awesome live. Really fun. The singer had a nice delay on his vocals so they sounded pretty & smooth (thanks recoding engineer boyfriend) in addition to him having a naturally good singing voice. Not surprisingly, they played "I Hope I Become A Ghost" especially well. Overall, we were impressed. Definitely glad we decided to go at the last minute. Follow them on Twitter: @deadlysyndrome

Buddy & Choir of Young Believers @ Spaceland

Was more impressed with Buddy (top photo) than COYB (bottom photo), who everyone who was there, was there to see. Both were really solid, solid Indie bands. Pleasant to listen to. Reminiscent of Death Cab. I didn't expect to enjoy it so much. I'd never heard of either band before - the only reason I went was because Nick was recording the show. I imagine most of the crowd was just kind of there by chance..



Andy Clockwise @ Spaceland / The Mint

Seen Andy & Co. about half a dozen times - Spaceland Recordings was working on their live record/DVD. Their all from New Zealand. Andy's always fun to watch. Hops into the crowd & sings in yer face. Stella, his drummer, is AMAZING. Fucking blows me away. Blows everyone away. See them if you have a chance.

NIN (soundcheck) @ Echoplex

Ok, so I wasn't cool enough to go to the actual show, but I did, at one point, find myself 3 feet from Trent, which made me feel pretty silly & giddy. Nick & I got to hang out for a little while, but NIN's security is a well oiled machine so we left when we started to get those suspicious looks. Apparently, The Echo no longer belongs to its owners when big artists are booked. Oh well, I still got to see & hear a little bit.

Kaile Goh @ Knitting Factory

My roommate & good friend, Devin, plays drums & produces the adorable & talented Kaile. She's only 14 but writes her own songs & plays rhythm guitar. She's got sort of a pop-punk thing going on. Reminds me a bit of Paramore. Even though she's not even old enough to hang out in the House of Blues, Sunset, she just played there last week with some big-wigs. They're trying to make her the next big thing..

Crazy Magnet.

I seem to be one.

Priorities. Are they straight?

Probably not.


Humans really are terrible beasts. Selfish, terrible, murdering beasts. But I suppose we're meant to be this way.

I wish I was a cat.


Or, I feel like I need to adjust my priorities. B/c it's not like I'll transform into a cat anytime soon.



You're not supposed to start a sentence with "but" or "because"

Monster of the deep: Giant 'Jaws' savages great white shark

http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/top-stories/2009/10/27/monster-of-the-deep-giant-jaws-savages-great-white-shark-115875-21777678/

Near the coast of Australia, an assumed to be 20ft shark took a couple large bites out of a 10ft Great White Shark. That's a big fucking shark. Not something I'd hope to ever run into, but it's still pretty fantastic that a creature like this exists.